I spent yesterday with friends. Having a grand old time, eating good food, listening to Music and joking around. It was the best thing to do. I didnt expect to feel as sad as I did yesterday, to be honest.
New things are a brewing. Ideas, plans and cool stuff. I have learnt a few things from this death and grieving business. The obvious ones? Savor the small moments. Revel in everything and have no regrets. I am looking forward to going home, the Sea, spending time with Granny G aka Gilda and all the very special people in my life. The not so obvious ones? Grief finds you not only in strange places but at your regular spot also. There is no point hiding.
Tomorrow another adventure awaits. And for this I am grateful, all the new experiences and people who find me. Holding grudges? Nah man. Life is way too short for that. Leave. Walk away and move on darling. Never with sadness. Or regret. With resolution yes….while trusting implicitly. My own judgement and the heart that beats in my ribcage. Boom. Boom.
I call that progress.