Just sharing some scribbled thoughts. I always carry around a notebook and can usually be found writing. Some of these thoughts become music, others formed part of the book I wrote.
There are people you will find, and who will find you – for who love is the only answer. Love in all its myriad of forms. It’s up to you to discern and choose accordingly. The greatest lesson you have to master is this – love and the consequences thereof.
Never fall in love with an artist or musician. Unless you are willing to see your heart and theirs revealed. Unless you can endure their silences, their unbridled joy, or see them flay the skin from their bones, attempting to unearth a truth. About themselves, the world they walk and dream in.
With music I carved them, lovingly, into objects of desire; into men I hoped they would be or never were at all.
Do not despair though – even if you are the one bringing despair into the life of another. We all have roles to play…
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Let’s make a promise to each other we can’t keep. You will be faithful and I won’t forget.
My secret desires know only your scent.
But we are both creatures of Fire. We smoulder, we rage, our hearts an inferno. And we ravage our lovers greedily,without regret. Until all that’s left are their their rib cages bearing our names like ancient curses.
There can be no surrender, no peace between you and I. Only the certainty of being reborn in smoke, fire and ash when our eyes find each other next.
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