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I am deeply aware of a few people who stalk me. The usual and rather unexpected kind  (thank you ex husband for informing me about the weirdos). And so one learns to be more careful with words – everywhere. Or not speak at all. A friend told me a few weeks back, ‘There is so […]

Every single time I am out on the town with friends and that moment finds me… when the music is perfect, when the crowd is in sync with each other and I had just enough whiskey….it’s that moment when everything within me becomes silent.  Just as I do when I rehearse and we are so […]

It is such a blessing performing with my band, for so many reasons. Aside from the real fact that they bring a fullness of sound….each and every one of them are so talented that when we play together it feels nothing short of joy. This performance was better than what we did when we opened […]

We somehow always get what we need. Perhaps its the universe conspiring or the echo of  gunshots ricocheting as we whisper small bits of nothingness to ourselves in our aloneness. Still, the moment arrives, when we know…I asked for this and here it is. Or I begged for this to not happen and here it […]

Yesterday we attended a music festival.  I won’t speak about the music or musicians who performed. Instead, I am gonna share small observations as I sat in the crowd. First, it was windy. So damn windy and cold. One literally had to either dance, drink or sleep to deal with those icy cold swells that […]

At the end of each year I send friends a rather specific mail or text, a little prayer for them if you will. In it one does encounter the usual suspects. Hope and love above all. Of course I add in some titbits that is just for them. Yeah, I pray a lot and being […]

When I write music alone a few things are inevitable. Someone dies or love is uncovered in a post apocalyptic world amidst flame and ruin. In short when I write music there is no balance at all. One extreme or the other is all I know to do best. My life is the tightrope…. My […]

Ah yes. It is time I implemented my new plan, time I stopped focusing on other people. More music. Less people, that’s what 2020 has to be about. I mentioned all these weird moments in the last few weeks, didn’t I? And even with those I am still bored. Musically, emotionally – I need a […]

I have been running into the strangest people this last few weeks and have to write to make sense of it. Thanks to my delayed emotional response to most events, it only occurs to me later that something, somewhere was very, very off. I manage to find ways of avoiding deeply problematic situations, I realise…after […]